The Apprentice with no Sorcerer - ongoing observational drawing practice started in 2017
Studio Notes
Upon moving into a place that would be my new home and studio, I had to face the question: “What’s next?” My immediate response was: “It is time to get to work!” At the same time an unanticipated, daunting thought came to mind: “What great meaning could possibly be achieved by you doing this?” In great disbelief, imposed by my own common sense, I had to admit to myself, that in order to proceed further, the answer must be: “Most certainly an achievable one.” It also became clear that the outcome is inevitably beyond my understanding and external to my awareness, which in turn simplifies my job making it more specific. I only have to decide on what is important.
I focus on this internal dialog translating it into the abstract and elliptical phrasing "a woman in an apartment....left to one's own devices.....is important". I see it as an active relationship with myself, a constant practice loop that I must construct, in order to make my life sustainable. The subject of my observation is not directly taken from life nor photos. It is instead supplied from video footage. A camera automatically records some of my tasks relating to artistic practice and common household chores.
Searching within this combination of mediums serves as a means to access the unpredictable. Posing for a picture is limiting in trying to gain this access, almost impossible. The video captures instances, chance happenings, and after the camera is set for a while, I easily forget it is there, slipping into a natural state. Referring in my drawings to these particular moments allows me to separate myself into two entities, coming together. My subject is strange and new each time, gaining further individuality from the occasional mistakes and disproportions that sneak in with my imprecise drawing technique.
Studio Notes
Upon moving into a place that would be my new home and studio, I had to face the question: “What’s next?” My immediate response was: “It is time to get to work!” At the same time an unanticipated, daunting thought came to mind: “What great meaning could possibly be achieved by you doing this?” In great disbelief, imposed by my own common sense, I had to admit to myself, that in order to proceed further, the answer must be: “Most certainly an achievable one.” It also became clear that the outcome is inevitably beyond my understanding and external to my awareness, which in turn simplifies my job making it more specific. I only have to decide on what is important.
I focus on this internal dialog translating it into the abstract and elliptical phrasing "a woman in an apartment....left to one's own devices.....is important". I see it as an active relationship with myself, a constant practice loop that I must construct, in order to make my life sustainable. The subject of my observation is not directly taken from life nor photos. It is instead supplied from video footage. A camera automatically records some of my tasks relating to artistic practice and common household chores.
Searching within this combination of mediums serves as a means to access the unpredictable. Posing for a picture is limiting in trying to gain this access, almost impossible. The video captures instances, chance happenings, and after the camera is set for a while, I easily forget it is there, slipping into a natural state. Referring in my drawings to these particular moments allows me to separate myself into two entities, coming together. My subject is strange and new each time, gaining further individuality from the occasional mistakes and disproportions that sneak in with my imprecise drawing technique.
